Okay. I don't know quite how to go about this. I am supposed to be writing about how the questions and answers from the discussion may affect my writing based on the audience... Well. Here is an honest assessment of my audience based on questions asked.
We are all sort of preoccupied with death, and the end of things. A lot of questions leaned towards last hoorahs and apocalyptic scenarios. Those are the questions I really remember. The answers were about what I expected. It was small talky. No conversations were started. Everyone gave their answer and waited for the next question to come along.
How is this going to affect my writing? Honestly? Not really very much at all. The only thing I might change about my writing is if I were to touch on something offensive. It's not my goal to offend anyone with my writing but other than that I write how I write. I'm not a journalist grabbing for attention with headlines to interest certain groups or an author trying to sell a novel. I do things I enjoy and I do them for myself. Writing isn't any different. When I write a story or essay I typically don't stop to wonder if anyone is going to like it. I like it and as long as I am getting my point across that is all that really matters to me. When you take something you enjoy and start bending and fretting because you are preoccupied with how others are going to react it stops being enjoyable and becomes work. A chore. My life is too hectic to take something as relaxing and cleansing as writing and turning it into a task.
I'm sure this isn't the type of response that was wanted. I could hit the delete button, start over. I could fabricate something that sounded like a more appropriate answer, but why? Why would I bother to write something made up that is supposed to reflect how I think and feel? I almost worry that my writings make me sound like a self centered jerk. I just want to do it my way and all my writings for this class have come from a deep place of honesty. "Write fearlessly", Ms. A said. Had I not laid eyes on those words my responses for this class would have all been very different, much more timid. Much more white bread, but writing fearlessly! It's liberating. It's exciting. It makes me feel like I am botching the hell out of some of these assignments but it's writing that feels good. I can feel myself growing and learning new things about myself and I like it. I count as the audience too.
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