Bunny Tracks

Sitting here eating a big bowl of ice cream wondering what blog link I am going to submit. I don't really have a favorite post so far. I more or less use this blog as a dumping ground for my brain every evening. No one can read it anyway. I honestly don't think anyone is ever going to read it. There is no link to it and as far as I can tell stuff just doesn't get graded or responded to in this class anyway. Bums me out. I really like feedback. Never knowing if I am doing right or wrong in here just makes me not try very hard because I am overwhelmed with science classes and I am more interested in working hard on things that I really need to know. This class feels like busy work. Busy work that never gets graded so you just put down whatever and go on with your to do list. One thing I am enjoying about this class is the fact that I am not bothering to be cheesy and write what I think everyone wants to hear. All this busywork would be almost unbearable if I was bullshitting it. I worry that I am in a bubble and soon there is going to be tons of feedback and grades and I will discover not only am I doing terribly but I have offended the instructor. I feel like maybe I'm the kid that is outside singing and dancing like a lunatic because you think no one is watching when there is an entire crowd in the window. I'm just writing whatever and going along oblivious to the fact that I am completely blowing it. It would be fun to use this blog as a series of short stories or something but by the time I get to sit down and do it I am just ready to get done with stuff. I almost always have a sleeping baby in my lap or a sandwich that I am trying desperately to wolf down while I can, all while watching the clock and calculating how many hours of sleep I will get if I finish everything by X time. Blogging just isn't for me. I don't even like going back and reading my own posts because all I do is bitch.